School

     Don't get me wrong, schools fun, sure it has its days when it gets old. But last year I truly realized I have a brain, and that I can do something sure I'm bad at history but I love listening to it, I love the way of life back then. I would, given the chance to live in the 1800's a time when all you had to do was survive, get married, have kids and die. Sure it's work but this country wasn't given to us. I do know that. Some kids don't even have school. Yet American kids all have schools why do we take it for granted maybe its a rebellious thing, we are given a chance to learn be smart and take our knowledge to invent a new object or a way of thinking, I could say more but that would be a lllooonnngg list. I'm not trying to make Americans look bad it's just true tomorrow's my first day of my junior year of high school, last year I liked school, sure it isn't the best place and most people even say they hate it but we spend 12 or 13 including kindergarten with 1 group of people yeah some move away, but some move to your school. And yes people change for the better and the worst it's just the way you look at it. I know my way of looking at things isn't like most 16 year olds, I'm proud of that. Sure I like to drink and try different things like a 16 year old, most people say that's young and to myself I'm still confused how I got so far in school or even getting my license. But i did. My mind doesn't stop thinking, I always said my mind was my enemy it makes me feel emotions towards people, but won't allow me to say them In front of them, and makes me feel sorry for people I hate. I'm shy, but if I see someone's trying to be my friend I start to open up, some days I try to hard to be myself, and others I feel like a jerk because I wasn't trying hard enough. I'm a normal 16 year old, I think I'm mentally 7, people think I am the stupidest person alive. I cry. I laugh. I get depressed. And I over think. That's me. Normal is how I act at school. I don't like being noticed, because I feel judged by groups of people in school, they say to go to an adult or teacher if your getting bullied, but is verbal bulling, bulling? I was maybe not intently but I feel like that's the reason why I can't open up. But then again I made myself forget turns out that doesn't help.  I'm not throwing myself a pitty party but something's bother me. Something's I want other people to think about. Now I'm going to bed. Hopefully. School in the morning, fun but scary. Have a good day! Or night...or something.  

                                         -Grace ^_^