Change.

            Well, what can I say so far...umm almost got in to a car wreck twice this week, both because someone was in my lane, but I LIVED!!!!!! Just thought I'd add that little note in there, considering I almost died 3 times before I was 6, fun stuff. Actually the main reason I wanted to blog today was because I noticed something that bothered me. Last month my WONDERFUL, I say sarcastically, Gym teacher decided that for every day we'd play soft ball, which I suck at, I'm not a sporty person. But the more I played it the better I got, I was actually hitting the ball, granted not very far but it was enough for me to get on 1st. Now we played that game until I didn't mind it, I didn't have a fear about it... but then we stopped. And my ability to hit the ball, went away, all of a sodden I was like the rest of the girls. Only on a certain circumstance is when I could hit it. I'm not the person that likes change, I try my best to avoid it, I stay away from drama, and I know every girl says that, but they are always the ones to start it, but if you asked a person in or not in my grade that isn't my best friend, they will tell you I'm quiet, heck about a week ago one chick learned I party, which should help you get an idea, I only talk if talked to, or if I see your really trying, I'll try back. And I say that just because the words are in my head, but my mouth it a road block, and only the most "common" words are allowed to escape, and I might add I will at some point talk to you but...I have to feel like I understand you, before my road block of a mouth will allow anything to come out. I do have friends that think I'm the happiest person alive, what they don't realize is I could cry everyday, but I depress my emotions, in  my imaginary bottle I hold dear, and after a while of forcing stuff in the bottle it cracks...the breaks, and my wounds are all re-opened, and my world goes through a crisis. Getting back to my point, the fact that I changed, for the worst bothered me. To myself, I think I am the same as when I was little, just more knowledgeable, but then again maybe that was a bad day. And maybe I didn't... all I have is hope, thats all anyone has I guess.
      
                                                                                       -Grace